So no sooner had I spoken about getting back on track, with my new job and all, it is announced the place is closing! Typical really. And while I was initially rather upset about it all, I’m beginning to try see the positive. Which for someone who is naturally pessimistic and slightly cynical like me is a major achievement.
This wasn’t just something that happened out of the blue, it was expected for quite a while but at the same time it happened pretty quickly. At first I was gutted for myself, after all my fears of getting a job, my indecisiveness of whether I wanted to work in the field I studied in college and finally conquering all this, it feels like fate has decided to be cruel to me. This job, while temporary, would give me experience for my CV, build my confidence and allow me to save to go travelling, something I’ve been really wanting to do since sitting my final exam almost a whole year ago (was it really that long?!). Then I felt even worse for everyone else at work, people who have worked there all their lives, people who had bigger problems that me, families, mortgages, real responsibilities.
While it all seems quite bleak, there is some positive. At least I think there is. I was so scared to get a job, the longer time went on without one, the more and more afraid I got. I don’t know why really, I’ve always enjoyed working. I was just really nervous and anxious about everything after I left college. I’ve now proven to myself that I can get a job and be good at it, that it isn’t all that scary. I’ve got loads of practice driving in a city as well, something I had never done before starting this job and something I was just as scared of doing. And yet now I do it every day. And the world isn’t going anywhere, it’ll still be there for me to travel and see for many many years to come. And who knows, I might be there long enough for me to save some money and go travelling after all!